I don't know if that has happened with you guys ever but I recently got a taste of this procedure in a not-so-good way. Now I am not going to reveal any of the facts about the incident but it really kind of turned my world upside down. I saw trust shattering right in front of me, too close to believe if it was actually happening. Not that it hasn't happened before but this time too close, too real.A slight change of perception can change the whole perspective of life. An everyday not-so-important act of yours suddenly becomes a felony.What seemed right in front of the eyes your whole life vanishes out of sight as if it was non-existent, like it was never there. Mr/Miss Right becomes the biggest liar and the baddie all of a sudden becomes the statue of honesty and loyalty.
I had trust issues before because of some unpleasant memories but this year (year 2012- I am gonna remember this one whole my life for so many reasons) I started to regain faith in people. Just when it was going all so smooth, a bomb dropped on my head! Can't life just let us enjoy for a while? Nope! it will just show us pretty foolish dreams only to pursue them and not to breath them, to live them. Now here I am not talking about your dreams of achievements (that's a whole different thing) but about dreams of people.
So when I came across this situation, my newly regained faith started trembling. If it had happened with me before, I would have wrapped myself in my loneliness jacket. But like I mentioned before, this year is different, the vibe is different, a little different is the new me and so the response is different. Even though I got scared initially, I handled myself really well and pretty quickly. Had it happened before I wouldn't have been able to trust anyone ever!!! But thanks to my parents and my friends, I guess I know I can trust and I will. Because I guess this is all life is about. Regaining yourself, overcoming your fears. You can never stop facing things you dread most. You can ignore but someday they will be standing in front of you, telling you how weak and fragile you are and how you can never win over them. You better face them, look right into them and say "I WILL".
I am no more a cocoon now,
there will be no hidings.
The winds cannot stop me anymore,
for I now have air beneath my wings
Wow! a 4 liner by ME. Liked it??
Its just the beginning, more darker fears will come by, they are never going to stop for they make you stronger if you change the perception a little. Let them stay, but only for a while. Just keep them until you become stronger and then do what i said because that's what I did and it helped me and I really hope it helps you too.
I may probably be magnifying this whole situation, may be its not that huge, may be I made this whole post sound too dramatic (Did I???) but that is how I am. Its not the huge ones, its those small things that I care about. They are the ones really precious to me. I hope you guys liked the post and I hope I haven't messed this up "much" ( yeah I know I have messed up a little but its allowed, its my first serious post naa!!!)
